I always do things without a particular reason or motivation. Just for the mere purpose of trying it. Sometimes things turn out to be pretty tough that make me horribly frustrated, with no idea on how to progress, with only an idea that few other people have accomplished it before. But it’s good that I’ve attempted and got to know myself better. Anyway, the more I try, the fewer tasks appear to be really that tough.
At the first phase of your life, you don’t have choice as to who might surround you and influence you. In the following years, their shadows are casted on you. As an automaton, you played out their youth, inherited their faults and commit their mistakes. But you don’t want to continue this replication. You slowly get rid of their grips and acquire your own breath, trying to escape their shadows before you become one of them.
Why learn a new language and abandon the old one? Gain some, lose some, one does not get profited. Or is it the denial of the culture and the identity?
Inflation. Stagnation.
Both are my current situations.
All my efforts were fed into the ocean.
Stationary progress.
Foaming ambitions.
What saddens me in the first half of my senior year is that this semester I never met anyone from whom I can learn new things from.
Not anyone that could inspire or encourage me. My bland life melts away like sinking icebergs.
is sometimes a very backstage unnoticeable thing done by insignificant people.
University students have the capability to organize events of wonderful topics, but the events themselves are often less than satisfying. In this aspect, poly students who are trained in event managements might do a better job. It’s a regret that event management was never taught in uni.
If you want to know all about Andy Warhol, just look at the surface of my paintings and films and me, and there I am. There’s nothing behind it.
—Andy Warhol
Sometimes profound sadness comes from simple things, such as I don’t have enough money to get a single room and have to deal with the unbearable noise.
Including learning a software.
Is it possible?
